Sunday, October 10, 2010

silver lining of a lady

"Every cloud has a silver lining"

I dont really get that.

I've never seen an actual silver lining on any real cloud. I mean, I get the whole "cloud" analogy but wouldn't it just be easier to say, "every cloud has a sun behind it somewhere"

hmmm-doesn't flow as well as I thought, nope...silver linings good.

We all have our own personal "clouds." Some people's clouds are gloomin' AZ style (once in a blue moon) and some of us have a Seattle style cloud, it feels as if we'll never see the sun again. I feel like it's constantly raining in my life, well, not really mine- but her's...

my little silver lining.

It seems unfair that this sweet little spirit has to try so hard to be a kid. It seems unfair that in the first 4 years of her life, she's had to overcome more than I'll ever be tried with. She has to TRY to speak, she has to TRY to listen, she has to TRY to fit in... it's heartbreaking.

As bad as I think my situation is, I know it could be alot worse. It makes me sad that alot of times when I talk to my friends about Saylee it's more complaints than praise. It's always, "Saylee spilt Nesquick all over the floor...again." Instead of, "Saylee picked up her own mess today," or "Saylee can count to 20 and can sing twinkle twinkle faster than humanly possible!" She's my little lady that sometimes moonlights as a wild boar but she's mine still the same.

it could be alot worse.

So here's the silver lining in my silver lining. Her smile.
Never waivers, never fails.

I know that at the end of a turrible day, I can still make her smile.

I know I can make her laugh, and she'll make me laugh

She loves me, and she knows how to show it.
How could I ask for anything more?


Claudia Luckey said...

she's adorable!

Taylors said...

I love this post. It's good to hear your voice! I am sure that the rain does come down more moments than not, but her sun sure shines beautifully when it comes out. :) Love you Saylee!

You are an awesome mom, Kristen.